I didn't get the eye surgery... nor contacts, but instead stuck with the same glasses and old prescription for now as life took a sharp turn to the unexpected and a few things had to be put on the back burner.
In August last year, mum was rushed to hospital with severe back pain, which, in the weeks following, turned out to be end stage lung cancer. She died in October after a determined but unsuccessful battle.
It sucks.
What else can i say.
I'm gutted.
A lady came into my shop today with her friend helping her. The lady had cancer and was struggling with the day out, so I took my chair out from around the counter and offered it to her. She sat for about five minutes before her friend finished browsing and led her away. I was hard pressed not to close the shop and have a good bawl.
That was hard.
The bad memories are fading, but its little things like that lady coming in that bring it all back to a certain extent and you have to compose yourself and hurriedly think of some good times to make you smile. I think of JJ's kiddies. They are all so gorgeous and mum just loved them with everything she had.
So I think of mum dancing with Beth and pulling those silly faces while she wiggled around, or William having a big snuggle with her and Joey just delighting in that weird noise she made when she tickled him. It all makes me smile and able to move forward.
But today, I think that now, while I'm alone, (doesn't happen a lot) I will indulge in the grumps and have a little cry, because that works too.
I am okay tho. Its all just part of life.
