heck! has it been that long?

Well, not that i have a lot of time right now, but, to catch up on the gos...
We decided to get rid of one of our three shops as it was not going so well, bad timing opening just before the down turn of the economy. Luckily we were able to sell the lease and move the remaining stock into our other gift shop which is just down the road. This has been a blessing as we now get two days off a week and it is absolute bliss! the feeling of contentment and complete relaxation on that second day is a life saver. Not to mention all the extra work we are getting done around the place... including regular house work. I actually want to clean the house now and don't feel as if its a chore. lovely.
Our pups are both lame in one each of their back legs, so lots of money spent later we have grumpy dogs and expensive dog food. They are grumpy because we cant run them regularly. They need rest, much to their disgust. oh well, at least they have yummy food now... much to our disgust.
The days are warmer, the Bulbs are in bloom and the sneezing has started. Awesome. I love Spring.

Life is Infinitely Stranger Than the Mind Can Invent.

I didn't get the eye surgery... nor contacts, but instead stuck with the same glasses and old prescription for now as life took a sharp turn to the unexpected and a few things had to be put on the back burner.



In August last year, mum was rushed to hospital with severe back pain, which, in the weeks following, turned out to be end stage lung cancer. She died in October after a determined but unsuccessful battle.

It sucks.

What else can i say.

I'm gutted.

A lady came into my shop today with her friend helping her. The lady had cancer and was struggling with the day out, so I took my chair out from around the counter and offered it to her. She sat for about five minutes before her friend finished browsing and led her away. I was hard pressed not to close the shop and have a good bawl.

That was hard.

The bad memories are fading, but its little things like that lady coming in that bring it all back to a certain extent and you have to compose yourself and hurriedly think of some good times to make you smile. I think of JJ's kiddies. They are all so gorgeous and mum just loved them with everything she had.

So I think of mum dancing with Beth and pulling those silly faces while she wiggled around, or William having a big snuggle with her and Joey just delighting in that weird noise she made when she tickled him. It all makes me smile and able to move forward.

But today, I think that now, while I'm alone, (doesn't happen a lot) I will indulge in the grumps and have a little cry, because that works too.



I am okay tho. Its all just part of life.